I’m 32. And I just realized how competitive I can get. I mean if I can’t win, I don’t want to play. My family has a weekly fitbit step challenge. I have definitely watched the clock and gotten up to run around in order to beat the rest of them. I think competition can be fun. But I recently discovered an unhealthy competition I have running in my inner thoughts.
I have an issue with other people doing better than me. Somehow in my competitive brain, I have found that when someone else does well, I feel like I’m losing. I don’t think I’m alone in this. Blame it on social media, a competitive nature, insecurity in my own abilities, and so forth. It kind of kills me to not be the “winner”.
I’m back to work from quarantine, and in between appointments I drive quite a bit which affords me quiet time to think. It’s really brought to focus some of the things I’ve avoided seeing when I look into the mirror of my soul.
Now that I’m facing and acknowledging this flaw in myself, I’ve come to a new revelation. The greatness in others does NOT diminish the greatness in me. Yep. Read it again- THE GREATNESS IN OTHERS DOES NOT DIMINISH THE GREATNESS IN ME.
I also realized that if my goal is just to win, then I’m actually holding myself back from what I am supposed to be bringing to the world. We are all creative beings. Our purpose in life is to create for creation’s sake. Not to “win”. Instead of trying to beat others, we should be inspired by their greatness and successes.
So, with that, I am working on my need to win. I’m honestly cheering on other people who are doing well and trying their best. I’m acknowledging that I need to grow and create and be the best I can be. Not in order to win but in order to be the best me that I can be.
